I hate this feeling.

I feel like I'm freaking dying inside. What in the world was I thinking, giving him a chance. Well, to like him at least. I was so swept from my feet that I didn't realize that I was being blind in my actions. I just want to freaking die right now, i~m so heart broken. i don't have the capacity to write anymore. and guess what? I was WARNED! How could my mommy do this to me? does he think that I like Renan or something? AFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFF! Oh well, i should get over it. im a wimp anyways and never really interacted with him anyways.
WAIT A SECOND! I will not give up. I will use my ultra charm. Or maybe he's just trying to make me jealous or something? Well, if that's his plan then it DEFINITELY worked. It's like a chainsaw to my heart, man. Just killing me with each thought.


By the ways, who is Renan, you ask? He's this really nice guy at seminary that i'm friends with. We did an art trade during class and it was so awesome and sweet. He drew me a rose with verses surrounding it and I drew him some chibi expression faces that I would typically make. I've only known him for a few weeks, but I can tell that we will be best friends. And I'll have to be careful to not spend TOO much time with him or else the people here will think we're dating, which since we're fist years, is like death. But anyways, he's awesome. (and was just friend-zoned, sorry) (who knows if it'll turn into something else, but I highly doubt it.

Anyways, gonna go to sleep. its quarter past midnight.